Still In Our Prayers

Today marks the Six month anniversary of the passing of my son Brian. Most of the gotapex crew are aware of the loss we have suffered and I'd usually just add a reply to my original post " http://www.gotapex.com/ubb/Forum9/HTML/000040.html " unfortunatly the new forum won't allow that so I'm forced to start a new topic. I spent the most of the day at the cemetary being as close to his side as possible, needless to say sitting graveside is no replacement for his hug which is greatly missed. I drove my bike to the cemetary so I'll bet he could hear me comming although in his short time with us he never got to hear the bike running because I was more occupied with being Daddy than being a Biker. I fondly remember asking him if he'd like to see Daddy get the Bike running again and since he only knew it as the Jungle gym that sat in Daddie's shop he'd tell me "No, Brian's Syko...Rummm Rumm" I used the rest of the day to catch up on my alcohol consumption until time came around to get my other son "Jonathan" from the Bus stop, then off to the Shrink for a little "is that really going to help?" talk. I know Brian is in good company but I'd gladly switch places with him as "life is supposed to be, Children bury their Parents" not the other way around. In Brian's life I know I did all I could to make his time a happy one and at least I can take comfort in the fact that he was a happy Baby but..... God Bless ! __________________ I'm sure I can say this with full confidence that we're all here for your support. I'm sorry that you have to go through life like this, but accidents happen. Everyone is forgiven for their mistakes. If you ever need help, we're here for you . Take care Bloodymess. __________________ I located the old post in the new form, you can delete this thread if you like and refer to the old one, Best of Luck